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Everybody's gonna have a good time
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 Kristine
Holds the key to her future, is that the key to truth? wongmlk@hotmail.com Shall take ourselves to a level higher. Just because we can. We shall always be happy and do whatever we want so that we would leave this world with no regrets. This is our life to live and we should answer to no one else but ourselves. We owe our lives to no one. To speak about freedom, but not being sure if we can achieve that. But we try. I never mentioned how we should all take risks, but only calculated ones. Never do something that your conscience can't live by, you don't want to face sleepless nights. The pursuit of happiness might not be with anyone else. The pursuit of happiness can be attained by walking the road alone. There are reasons why you remain alone, but many don't understand why you choose to be alone - they can't see why you're perfectly lonely.
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Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Am I Influenced or...? Wow, I haven't touched this for a really long time and so much has changed! (I looked at my blog and can't find a reason to why I abandoned it. I kinda think it still looks cool, hehe) So I know the exams are literally round the corner. But I've decided to take some time out to type. Maybe just cuz the diary isn't near by and I need to rant. All this bickerin' with my parents isn't doing me good. I know this is a bit young but then I'm already rationalizing the reasons to why I don't want to have any kids. & why do I harp on the fact that I want to live fast and die young. I don't know how to explain this entirely and properly. In 'simple' language... It's just that 3 happy days = 1 sad day. Which makes my life rather sad in the bigger sense. Because I need to have 3 happy days to make me feel happy, but once a sad day comes about, all 3 are wasted. The impacts of being sad are 10 000 x much more than feeling alright! I bet my parents didn't want me to feel that way. But I can't help it that I'm born a pessimist. That's maybe a big reason why I wouldn't want to bring anyone new into this (cruel) world. :( Really don't have any setbacks in life nor anything to worry about but then I still feel so..... :( Tell me why. If I am not really able to tolerate my parents, omg, will my kids tolerate me? No. But I will of course do my part in repaying them this debt I've never asked for. I will provide for them and all, it's only a must. And maybe that's why I've always been stressed up that I should have enough money for them and myself to live comfortably. It's sounds really crude but then.... What do you need to live by? Money? Yes. Money? You take some and be happy. That's all of my obligations I hope. Oh god, I will die a lonely soul. Someone, prepare me 72 cats or 69 dogs. I will need them. There's this thing on my mind for a while. Keep having the thoughts of moving out of the house. I feel that I like some time alone. They say you never know it's worth until it disappears... Maybe because I am saturated with my family's presence so I don't feel like I will miss them when they aren't around, but will be glad that they aren't around. (Is the grass always greener on the other side?) But here's a shitty thing, when I was away in the USA for 1.5mths, I never missed them. Why? Ugh, sounds bad to me, was it because USA was fun that's why? Hehe. Or is it really that I'm self-sufficient. I hope I am. I can see myself in the future, slogging my guts out and abandoning the people ard me. I am a workaholic, thank you very much. I don't think I should even exist. Lousy girl. Trying to keep calm all the time at home. Can't help but be irritated by the slightest things said. ZEN~ GARBBBLE! So then I was told if I was to keep up being all :( I will definitely give it to my children. What if my children don't turn out the way I expect them to be. Too many what ifs, so yea, nope. None. Be alone, you're fine. & maybe I don't wanna get married too. Maybe I won't ever get married. Haha. I'm sure he will want kids, which of course will be a strain on the r/s cuz I won't have any. BE NICE. I realised (while typing), I will have to travel to turkey with my Mom this Dec hols. Please keep the relationship good, nice and calm :D I love them, I love them when they aren't around. Ciaos Tuesday, May 22, 2012
I'll Never Be Old At Heart I'm saying, I'll never be old at heart. It's so difficult. I just wanna play, have fun, be loud, make fun of people, try and make the crowd laugh (sometimes at the expense of others, I'm sorry). But yea, all in all, I just wanna have a good time and I guess even if the age increases and I do get scared at times... I still think I might never grow up D: Meh. Gosh, I don't want to act my age... Is there a definition on how I should act my age? Responsibility... I guess I ought to have more of that, I won't deny. But what else. It's tough being all proper most of the time and I am the kinda person that really needs to let loooooooose and have a blaaaaast! Ciao Kris |
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