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 Kristine
Holds the key to her future, is that the key to truth? wongmlk@hotmail.com Shall take ourselves to a level higher. Just because we can. We shall always be happy and do whatever we want so that we would leave this world with no regrets. This is our life to live and we should answer to no one else but ourselves. We owe our lives to no one. To speak about freedom, but not being sure if we can achieve that. But we try. I never mentioned how we should all take risks, but only calculated ones. Never do something that your conscience can't live by, you don't want to face sleepless nights. The pursuit of happiness might not be with anyone else. The pursuit of happiness can be attained by walking the road alone. There are reasons why you remain alone, but many don't understand why you choose to be alone - they can't see why you're perfectly lonely. Archives
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Friday, June 01, 2007
Ahah! 1st JUNE! And I was thinking too. Too deep in thoughts about how others think bout what I pen. The school hols are giving me way too much free time to doodle and let my thoughts run oh-so-wild. Even wrrying bout the impossibles. Why the trouble? I read about helium balloons. And how as a child, you'll never not be amazed by how the balloon floats up in the air and always that small tinge of happiness where you have that string bound around your wrist to keep that balloon from floating away. But no matter how, in the end the balloon some how seems to be able to leave and float away. Maybe you'd stare at it w/ teary eyes, knowing the inabilities to recapture that moment of content. Seeing it vanishing into the vast sky, a small speck still drifting further away. You only see the sad part of loosing sth. Losing sth you wanted by you so dearly. You thought after all, it wasn't meant to be? You doubt you gave it a second thought bout what you really felt inside. Years passed by so quickly and out of a sudden, you recall that unhappy past where the ballooon always managed to drift away, out of your hands. On the contrary, now, that moment seemed magical, you somehow eliminated the sad feeling and replaced it w/ Envy? Your workload increases consistently, so does your urge for freetime, being carefree. You start to sought, yearn for that freedom you see in that disappearing balloon. To be able to soar so wonderfully, most importantly FREELY. Still then, your thoughts deepen. You start to see that the ballooon isn't so happy afterall. It's "freedom" is shortlived. Birds that might burst it, the sun which emits extreme heat, rain that beats down hard, planes crossing by. Ponder about it again, lastly, the wind that carries it. To and fro, the balloon can't object, can't reject. It just followed. So what's life w/o freewill? Staring hard at that blurry dot out there, you subconciously engraved your name on that balloon. Soon, you'll accept it for your life/fate. Sadly, I don't want to give in, don't want to admit what I'm facing. Such a coward to face all the challenges in life. Where's all the courage I used to be able to muster? Seemingly went "spooof", gone forever. So many things are squeezing into my already super uber packed life. More trouble after the other. I find it creepy, seems to strangle me, slowly, still allowing a small gasp of oxygen whenever it sees me going all pale white and fainting. Being dumb, I somehow still scramble for that breath, why didn't I have to courage to avoid it? Let this whole torture end? Yet I decided to inhale. Is it that I still see that puny thing called "Hope"? It's over the other side of the tempered glass I'm sure, that translucent layer's shading it's brilliant luminous light, shining so brightly. Omg! And now I see this evil shade moving in, blockin' my only light source. I writhed uncomfortably and piercing screams, Noooo Noooooo. Don't cover it. Darkness is hatred. I cried. This ain't bout boygirl relationships which are in fact shallow for someone my age. It meant so much more. It's my life. To break this whole thing up, I'd rather die than make a choice between 2 people I love so terribly. I've tried to forgive, I believe I can do so. Seeing your actions, I questioned, Are you repenting, or feeling guilty? But I'm so sad now. I'm just speechless, I thought everyone stayed at home and rested. Actually it's just that going out w/ me is a bore. I wasn't even in the group I guess. Didn't even ask. So I'm here sitting at home, reminescing bout the what I lost and then prepare myself to lose more. I don't know if this feeling is called disappointment, or was it me that had too much of expectations? No, I'm culpable, I know. Cos if I'm the outcast, then it's my problem. No, I'm just too sensitive. No, I don't want to be alone. No, I just don't know how to express my gratitude and loving for you all. No, I think too much, I wasn't even included in the first place. I hope it'll all just be a NO. And get over. Rot your life at home. Please just die off, youre a good for nth bitch. Die and burn in hell, Kristine. You fucked up your own life, so live it like it's fuck. Gameover.     Tsktsk, sorry for the "emo" topic at the start. But no one doesn't know that Im a happygolucky, who cares bout those shit. Also apologies for turnoff pics!! :D But I loooove the background! "KFC is the love !" :D But for today, Buddy Meal's promotion just ended! Or else buddy cher and buddy kris would have gotten that and added a cheese fries for just $10.35 :D Awww, but to no avail. ): Kentucky Fried Chicken might be known wrongly as CANADA :S (an inside joke) tsk!  The tray w/o FOOOOD!!!! Kris rants like mad and bangs the table like barbarian! : "Where is my foooood!!! ARGH! I will complain to the management and get these asses all sacked!!! WHY take so long to make a burger, even instant cheese fries also soooo long!!! WAHHH SEHHHH!" I esp love the word sehh Super turnoff but interesting! :D    So what are these wriggly lil creatures called?!!!! Guppies! And they're really nice just a lil cheaper and less tastier than salmon or swordfish. But still, You can feel the life wriggle in your mouth and you slurp them up and give a huge burp. See them flickin' their tails in between those lips of you. You wouldn't think twice not fallin in love w/ this cheap delicacy. Tsktsk, that was disturbing AND i didnot even touch one of those EEEEWWW WRIGGLY STUFFF!!!! tsktsk! It's just my dad. He asked me to get some fishes from the dumb fountain thing cos the dengue fever illness' spreadin ard quicker than shit. Soo ooo. I had to get some. And 3 for 2$! Cheap shit and I nv everrrr thought of muching on one. YUK groosssss! P/s Sentosa here I come tmr :D |
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