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 Kristine
Holds the key to her future, is that the key to truth? wongmlk@hotmail.com Shall take ourselves to a level higher. Just because we can. We shall always be happy and do whatever we want so that we would leave this world with no regrets. This is our life to live and we should answer to no one else but ourselves. We owe our lives to no one. To speak about freedom, but not being sure if we can achieve that. But we try. I never mentioned how we should all take risks, but only calculated ones. Never do something that your conscience can't live by, you don't want to face sleepless nights. The pursuit of happiness might not be with anyone else. The pursuit of happiness can be attained by walking the road alone. There are reasons why you remain alone, but many don't understand why you choose to be alone - they can't see why you're perfectly lonely.
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Monday, November 23, 2009
Mind in a Headlock Pictures from the 5 days of camp. Part of them only. Too lazy to upload all. Anw, they are in reverse chronological order, so happy viewing! :D    Lovely Group 5 and trainer Quezy Grp 5 final challenge :D we did well really ! Final Challenge for our buddy Grp... SIX! :D  PLANS for campfire with buddy grp! Really cool jetty jump shotz, thx to the trainer that was in the water. So gotta get one of those waterproof cameras :D Most exciting of all, our muddy adventure at the nature reserve! Legs got stuck, hands were muddied and everyone was really really really dirty! The temptation to run over and hug a clean person was tremendous Lol. Sherwood challenge! Me and Van Ho who were the first 2 to cross over dry and safe :D :D She managed to complete the entire course dry! Coolios Tire swing where we managed to conquer this obstacle course in record smashing time, who's up for the challenge, anyone?! Lol Lunch we had when we were trekking 25km with huge haversacks to our campsite - Sarimbun. 5 days of camp Lol. Lazy to say what happened there, but it was fun. Like any typical camp. Back in Singapore 3 days alr. Still feel like a lump of meat, there's nothing nothing nothing to do everyday. Or it feels like. The fact that homework has piled up more than anything else, but even when I have nothing to do, the books are the last option. Did I once mention how disappointed I was because I couldn't get to go for Bio Olympiad? Yes I am terribly pissed with it. Somehow it just got to me and so I decided to type it out. I have decided to only use the computer an hour a day (the time my lappy dies after getting fully charged) So I don't plug it in. May I'll do math today. You know what, I don't think I will even remove the book from the shelf. Tmr would be Cher's bday. :) Ugh batt's flatting soonz! End of with still another high note which is an MLIA post! Today, while I was sitting in math, the people around me were discussing what they were going to do over Thanksgiving break. One girl said, very seriously, that she was going to go "Comcasting". This is apparently where you take your universal Comcast remote and stand outside of windows, changing the channel and confusing the people watching. I was planning on spending my break sleeping, but I think this may just be better. MLIA. Sunday, November 15, 2009
Uncertainty Never have felt uncertain about stuff. /edit yes, don't seem to feel uncertain now. May this Camp cleanse my soul thoroughly. Disgusted. Ashamed. Lost. 5 days with 10 total strangers. May we spend the best of these days together. No backstabbing, no atrocity and no unhappiness. To be more aware of my surroundings... Adios oopsy daisy i hurt you again crushed your heart in the palm of my hands if you walk out baby ill understand cos all ill do is hurt you again yeah, and again, and again, oops, there we go again we messed up once i messed up twice how many times are we gonna try again girl its like round and round we go [hustle] id prefer if you left me alone cos i cant take the pain and my heartbeat feels like an 808 im a walking disaster dont wana hurt you thats why you got to go destruction like fire on the ground thats why you got to go, oh oh oh ohhh yeah see the fussin and fightin, lets not before i see red, lets stop this heres really the end of ima find cupid and put him in a headlock now why did you pick on me why let the pretty bird shit on me i dont need good luck but i need good love thats a girl that will stand by me look honey i didnt diss you therefore i shouldnt have to miss you and now i feel like saturdays are weaker me and my heart got crazy issues and my girl its like round and round we go, [hustle] ill prefer if you left me alone cos i cant take the pain and my heartbeat feels like an 808 oopsy daisy i hurt you again crushed your heart in the palm of my hands if you walk out baby ill understand cos all ill do is hurt you again im a walking disaster dont wana hurt you thats why you got to go destruction like fire on the ground thats why you got to go, oh oh oh ohh yeah they say three times a lady i say three times you're crazy to done with the messin around baseball love, three strikes you're out you're too busy tryna' catch me out but i just wana get home the touring, after a while gets boring i need to come back to your touch look its all too much i guess now we gotta let go you see me grow from a boy to a man so this must really be the end of the road and girl its like round and round we go, hustle id prefer if you left me alone cos i cant take the pain and my heartbeat feels like an 808 im a walking disaster dont wana hurt you thats why you got to go destruction like fire on the ground thats why you got to go oopsy daisy i hurt you again crushed your heart in the palm of my hands if you walk out baby ill understand cos all ill do is hurt you again Friday, November 13, 2009
To Know Who Brings Happiness to You So so so so so so so many pictures (which are in chronological order from the back, so the newest is in front and the old ones behind. ) for this post and I am not going to blog about it now, just yet because ZOO is calling me! I'm going to complete my scenario game soonz! I completed an advanced one just the previous day. Boy was it hard ): ZZZ (apologies to Cher... Sorry for throwing you many days so I can complete my Zoo. Mi An Neh. ) So here to shock you with a face of mine first. So sorry I was too lazy to rotate the picture!  Wore this 3/4JT long sleeves for a movie. Could remember the very fun we had when we were rehearsing the dance, WONDERBOY :D   Hee hee, this is the thing I really like to eat. It's called Oh Ni. :D Yam Paste in English I guess. Wasn't as nice as I hoped it'd be. It's really hard to make, that's why its expensive. And also, hard to find ones that are nice. (thought came by, I wish I was working on PW, instead of feeling all ): because of the guilt of procrastination and doing nth... Doesn't quite make sense, I am incoherent after all. )  POPO Cher! hopefully this Sunday can have it! I booked the day for Mahjong :D The mask I wanted to get for Halloween..... Wait, I don't think I actually celebrate Halloween, do I?! Hahaha.  Ugh I don't know if this is a joke or its meant to be... But isn't it BUDS instead of BUTTS?! Right outside of Marche at Vivo.     :D All the wonderfully cool Icecream that I had at Island Creamery that day. SOOOO GOOOD and so Ex as well. But mommy treated me, so all the more :D Wish that can pig out any other day and never grow fat hahaha! My cute Kangy and its sketch that I made on one of the classroom's table heee. I hope its legacy lives on! Wheeee. Kangy is a dirty thing now, always hugging my bag.. It tells me it stinkz.   Finally, everyone can see my friend whose face grew back in a few months. Previously she only had all those faceless photos. Phew, luckily my concoction of some really good stuff made it grow back. Luckily too, that you guys see the fully formed face... When it was growing out, boy was it scary! :D So now, you can see the preeetttttttyyyyyyy VANESSA! (Where the hell is the photo of me and Ah Shan at the grandstand!!!! So rare that Ah Shan actually take photos! hopefully we both look good in it cos its.... RARE)  Ha, what a .... Done by Gloria Tan. Ari :D But then later u ask me to pay money for this! I'm like WHAT WHAT WHAT !?!!!??!?  Late night supper at Clarke Quay with G. We wanted to get to Timbre. But we couldn't find it. Apparently, the instructions given to us was to find a dark dark dark place. And we couldn't find it because the dark dark dark place seems to be everywhere! Since it was so late at night ! Ah, bullshit, nvm. So we lost our way to Clarke Quay and had nice supper there at TCC!   MOOOLAH! ))))))))): Not mine though. I just felt the need to put some money pic here so that I can attract all the other monies to me!   When I felt the love of MAXSTER I went to get paws tattooed to my ankle! The cute dog that has left me for more than a month or so ! AWWW, he is terribly missed. Sometimes late in the night when I don't know what to do and don't want to do anything.. But go for long walks... I don't have him to accompany me anymore! ): I'd love to spend MORE time with people whom I truly think I will be happy with. For an example, Cherie, Hazel, Qian, Vanessa, Ah Shan... A few more. I don't want to spend my time with people who make me think about stuff. Or maybe people who I doubt if I'm really happy I am with. That doesn't sound happy, so I guess it isn't really being happy. Currently, tight tight tight on budget. No money, but will still be willing to spend on the people I love. Really. I don't dare to take money from Papa. I am sad for Papa. F.(B)A.M.I.L.Y F(B)AMILY ): May we all keep our sorrows and problems to ourselves... Hearsay: Because when all of us throw ours in a pile, we would only rush to take ours back. We realise how much others have to worry. Never think that you're stuck. Never think that you cannot be accomplished in the things you do. Because of something pulling you back down... It never is the case because those who have accomplished have as much to worry as you do. You'll never be the world's most troubled person. You can overcome whatever you set out to do. When you give yourself a reason .... It is an excuse if it hinders your progress... I feel stressed just by typing all these. Maybe you can find out how stressed I am by counting the pimples on my FACE. GUITAR GUITAR GUITAR. Who wants to teach me to play the guitar and hang out with me to play the guitar. Sometimes when the cyberworld cannot let you escape from the real world, maybe the musical one can do so. FRIENDS MAY I CALL UPON YOU GUYS. Friends are always our ultimate option! CHERISH whom you think is worth it. CHERISH those whom you think may be worth it. Put aside those whom you think should just stuff their heads into shitholes. Adios Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Back to Haunt Me I don't know if I should be feeling all shitty or not. But I do recognise this feeling. Had encountered it many times and now am scared of it. Went to play table tennis ytd and I sucked at it. The fact I haven't touch it for 6 mnths or so. I'm just feeling so loserish again. Table tennis gives me life and takes my life away as well and I sooooooo don't want to go back to that cycle. Guess I always take table tennis too seriously and must train like hell so I get the standard back cos I can't stand feeling lousy in it. Just this time round, I don't have the money, the time and the energy to do so. Everything feels like its sapping my energy. Ah, no I just made it sound real bad, that's all. Like someone said: It's only a game. Yes it is and I shouldn't be concerned about it, should I ?! Apparently, I don't really know what my life is supposed to revolve around... Who or what or anything was my life revolving around before I asked this question... Me, meself and I. Drop that but, was it friends, table tennis, or? Harder to make true friend nowadays. The harder part is to show people you're true and that you are true but you don't seem true because they might just exploit it. And you're always on the tip of your toes 'cos you feel like someone's going to exploit you. You always think that someone is out to exploit your real emotions or whatever so you get ready and pounce first. End up hurting the person that didn't even think of pouncing. Misery loves company. What's wrong with me.... I just said it is indeed harder to get true friends and the true friends I have... Am I doing sufficient to keep them by my side? I know definitely I haven't tied them down and suffocated them. Then why... Why Kristine are you not making the move to tell and let those whom you care know you care. Show others the love, show yourself the love that is actually already out there. Like vapour in the air. Collect some of em and you'll have lots of it. Those walls you've built, you should have knocked them down.... But why is it so hard?? Anw, was quite pissed last night. Again I felt like I was insignificant. Anw, yes, I always feel that in the family, the things I do are fooling about and stuff. Totally non-constructive and always just doing some unimportant stuff... then ytd I felt myself question again when some SMS came in. What impact have you to my life? I only get pressure when you appear. Cos apparently you have very high expectations of me and I cannot give reasons for things I do cos its all an excuse. Like I don't want to excel in my own stuff. Like no one knows I am after all a very competitive bitch and have to get the best I can or I wouldn't live with it. ): You think only your disappointments are disappointments... My own disappointments cut deeper than yours. And my friends and you are equal. We have a different set of rules that we live by. It may seem the same on the surface, it ain't really the same. The things I worry and are of my concern are way off from yours. And definitely I am sure of that. Fine, you still have my respect. UGHHHH, why horrible feelings. P.W is done and shouldn't the mood be floaty and happy until the results POP out? Hee. Ciao. P/s I'm facing the demon of my life again this afternoon. Why I even bother to attend it? My undying love for it? ): Thursday, November 05, 2009
Grab Ass Shizz  Starting off with an MLIA and a funny pic that showed the essence on how to be an Ah Lian back in Sec sch w cher hahaha. so that the moooooooood will be lighten and remains happy :D Today I was babysitting a little girl who asked me what an STD was. Not knowing what to say I told her it stood for Sparkly Turquiose Dress. She then told me to draw one for her, so I made a picture of the dress and gave it to her. When her parents arrived the girl shouted "Mommy,mommy. Alex gave me an STD." I look forward to babysitting her again.MLIA Can't wait for the camp to begin! Can't wait to go on treks that I have never had in life! Love all the nature and nature and nature stuff. I want to live my life with treks every week. And Cher knows bout my "master shit plan" haha.. Cher sorry didn't mean to disgust you. But you know that I love to disgust you and then whine and then suan you. Love it ! Planned to walk home after today's briefing from school, but sadly, it rained heavily. Failed to do so. Would like to try it soon! :D Tmr there's O.P. dry run. Would have to sleep soon. Oh and tmr can't wait. Cherie's sleepover! We can cam whore till we ah siao and then chat and stuff. Now I have to plan how to smuggle a sleeping bag out of the house so that I can camp there and the hard floor wldn't kill me. And I wld have to hide from the weirdy people there as well. Just in case they report me to the guards. Hopefully nth like that would happen. Actually I'm quite scared.... Hopefully I don't get caught! Really! Anw, then Sat and Sun would be work at the British Country Club again. Now I'm prepared to run and slog my guts out. Cos I need the exercise. Haven't been exercising for some time and I keep getting the cardiac arrest feeling. Ugh, do you know what feeling is that? It feels like my heart pumps so so so so so fast that it just can't slow down and its gg to pop. I know its not heart attack is it? there's this name for it. I just can't replace it with its proper name. ohwells, I'd get a jab of stabilizer if I was at House's clinic. But if I was there, that means that I'm on the verge of dying and no one, not even House can find a cure for that. Hahahaha, err.. But I'd love to see House then die. To actually know that HEY, House can't cure me that's why I'm dead. Heee! I want to be a doctor so badly because I am curious about the human body. I really am. I'm not grossed out by the blood. And am sure with adequate exposure to needles, I would not be afraid of them anymore. Also, I am very attracted to it because the decisions I make for my patients then would be the ones that matter. My decision means life or death. I know I did mention something like that before in one of my posts. Yes, I am repeating it again. I need to find a purpose in life. Hopefully I can get the job that I am asking for now. But seems like it won't he so. All fingers crossed :D Ahhhh, what a long post. Never imagined it to be such a long one. Ugh, my eyes are indeed closing! O.P. will go well. I can sense it already. Teammates! The last last last leap and we're done! Hang in there and boomz them w our mindblowing speech. Aqilah, jiayou too ! Don't give up. I will try not to give lame comments and that will help you!!!!!!!! :D Dam fugly tired. Ciao I miss my world Wait, I don't think I ever had a world of my own. Hey, why not create one... I want dinosaurs in it I want lots of treks in it I want more fun in it I want everything under the big bright sun in it Except worries, commitments, insults, and whatever that makes the eyebrows furrow. Smile and everything's gonna be fine! (Cher! EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE FINE! RMB OF WHO?!!?!?!?!?!? HAHAHA!!!) Love the world Ciao for real real real Monday, November 02, 2009
Anything worthy to note? Saturday, Science Centre with Aaron. Went to view Body Worlds :D      Friday night 30/10/09 swimmingz with Cherie Toh. Can right all these pics! :D Finally can get them up :D      Too lazy to explain nor even write captions for the pictures. Make it feel too much like PW. ): Rly sad. Anw, so much stuff swimming in head but when I actually want to write them down, it seems like I can't. ): And I know I've been acting like an ass (to whomever it may concern... ) an ass is an ass and I know that I am acting like one when I am acting like one. Shall we not be so concerned by the fact that yes I am an ass. Alright. Never mind. Kristine hopefully can change for the better. And be better. Not so much of an idiot or... being way too childish. Also, pls do not comment on this post. Really. Do. Not. Comment. Please. My father has become a weird person, so many years living with him... Now I guess I can say its the saddest part of his life. Should I pity? What kind of a sense is this? Ugh, I don't know. Sometimes, I just can't be bothered by how dysfunctional my family may be. This situation is utterly senseless. Oh forgot to mention, went to work this morning with Ah Shan, Vanessa and me. British Country Club to be some swimming official/marshall or smth. I don't know. I'd like to thank the exercise actually, despite me being all so whiney about it. This is hard to understand. Its like I love tough stuff and exercise and whatever... But somehow I don't know how to show it, or rather I don't want to show it...... Because its sick, like loving to be tired and slogged out to the guts is actually fun. I think its fun but being all jelly about it and rejecting it is the norm and yes, I am following the norm. Okie, I'm not re-reading then editing what I wrote cos it'll sound incoherent. 3a.m. goodnight. Ciao |
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