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 Kristine
Holds the key to her future, is that the key to truth? wongmlk@hotmail.com Shall take ourselves to a level higher. Just because we can. We shall always be happy and do whatever we want so that we would leave this world with no regrets. This is our life to live and we should answer to no one else but ourselves. We owe our lives to no one. To speak about freedom, but not being sure if we can achieve that. But we try. I never mentioned how we should all take risks, but only calculated ones. Never do something that your conscience can't live by, you don't want to face sleepless nights. The pursuit of happiness might not be with anyone else. The pursuit of happiness can be attained by walking the road alone. There are reasons why you remain alone, but many don't understand why you choose to be alone - they can't see why you're perfectly lonely. Archives
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Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Back to Haunt Me I don't know if I should be feeling all shitty or not. But I do recognise this feeling. Had encountered it many times and now am scared of it. Went to play table tennis ytd and I sucked at it. The fact I haven't touch it for 6 mnths or so. I'm just feeling so loserish again. Table tennis gives me life and takes my life away as well and I sooooooo don't want to go back to that cycle. Guess I always take table tennis too seriously and must train like hell so I get the standard back cos I can't stand feeling lousy in it. Just this time round, I don't have the money, the time and the energy to do so. Everything feels like its sapping my energy. Ah, no I just made it sound real bad, that's all. Like someone said: It's only a game. Yes it is and I shouldn't be concerned about it, should I ?! Apparently, I don't really know what my life is supposed to revolve around... Who or what or anything was my life revolving around before I asked this question... Me, meself and I. Drop that but, was it friends, table tennis, or? Harder to make true friend nowadays. The harder part is to show people you're true and that you are true but you don't seem true because they might just exploit it. And you're always on the tip of your toes 'cos you feel like someone's going to exploit you. You always think that someone is out to exploit your real emotions or whatever so you get ready and pounce first. End up hurting the person that didn't even think of pouncing. Misery loves company. What's wrong with me.... I just said it is indeed harder to get true friends and the true friends I have... Am I doing sufficient to keep them by my side? I know definitely I haven't tied them down and suffocated them. Then why... Why Kristine are you not making the move to tell and let those whom you care know you care. Show others the love, show yourself the love that is actually already out there. Like vapour in the air. Collect some of em and you'll have lots of it. Those walls you've built, you should have knocked them down.... But why is it so hard?? Anw, was quite pissed last night. Again I felt like I was insignificant. Anw, yes, I always feel that in the family, the things I do are fooling about and stuff. Totally non-constructive and always just doing some unimportant stuff... then ytd I felt myself question again when some SMS came in. What impact have you to my life? I only get pressure when you appear. Cos apparently you have very high expectations of me and I cannot give reasons for things I do cos its all an excuse. Like I don't want to excel in my own stuff. Like no one knows I am after all a very competitive bitch and have to get the best I can or I wouldn't live with it. ): You think only your disappointments are disappointments... My own disappointments cut deeper than yours. And my friends and you are equal. We have a different set of rules that we live by. It may seem the same on the surface, it ain't really the same. The things I worry and are of my concern are way off from yours. And definitely I am sure of that. Fine, you still have my respect. UGHHHH, why horrible feelings. P.W is done and shouldn't the mood be floaty and happy until the results POP out? Hee. Ciao. P/s I'm facing the demon of my life again this afternoon. Why I even bother to attend it? My undying love for it? ): |
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