|
Everybody's gonna have a good time
Don't mention no stress right here
|
|
 Kristine
Holds the key to her future, is that the key to truth? wongmlk@hotmail.com Shall take ourselves to a level higher. Just because we can. We shall always be happy and do whatever we want so that we would leave this world with no regrets. This is our life to live and we should answer to no one else but ourselves. We owe our lives to no one. To speak about freedom, but not being sure if we can achieve that. But we try. I never mentioned how we should all take risks, but only calculated ones. Never do something that your conscience can't live by, you don't want to face sleepless nights. The pursuit of happiness might not be with anyone else. The pursuit of happiness can be attained by walking the road alone. There are reasons why you remain alone, but many don't understand why you choose to be alone - they can't see why you're perfectly lonely.
Archives
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010
August 2010
September 2010
October 2010
November 2010
December 2010
January 2011
February 2011
March 2011
April 2011
May 2011
August 2011
September 2011
October 2011
May 2012
November 2012
Credits
©Glamouresque. |
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Food For Thought Okay so once again, I know that I should be studying but! I am all restless and can't face another paper... What a wasted afternoon! Alright, here's this post on Food For Thought (literally). I wouldn't swap Asian Cuisine with any other cuisines in the world! I love the Western dishes where we have fish and chips, pizzas (YUM!) and all the steaks. But urgh... Maybe not to such an extent!  I wouldn't trade rice/noodles with fries ... Or potato. (Bread maybe but then again!) All the nice curries, I wouldn't trade them too.  STREET FOOD/HAWKER FOOD! Delicious and I can't imagine myself spending a month in America, constantly eating fast food, non fast food which still tastes like fast food. Unless I afford the atas restaurants there, mmm. But wouldn't I still crave for the hawker food in Singapore, despite it being hot and sweaty and aircon-less. Owells, I'm not sure about my life in USA now, Hahaha! But I know it'll be fun, food is not one of the main considerations (I guess) So I tell myself, "Look at the chicken chop, yum isn't it..." Then again EEW, I don't know why but, meat... There's this thing I can't take about "unfresh" meat. What I mean would be meat that is taken from poultry or cattle that has been raised inhumanely. I have been trying to stave off meat for quite some time. But to no avail because the household still whips up a dish of meat or 2 each day. With me having most of my meals at home, how can I not eat meat and survive the day (Because my Granny nags the hell out of me to eat meat!) Oh and then here comes the linkage.... I've been ill for the past few days: Flu, Cough, Fever. Horrid, I know, the fact that the As are going to be here in a week's time. Never mind. The main point is... The Granny keeps nagging and saying, you are so weak and fall ill BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT EATING MEAT. But I know I am getting the required amounts of nutrition. (I eat fish! Because that's the meat that I would eat more if I'm required to touch meat) I am getting my milk and eggs. That's a lot of protein and that should be what I need. There are the beans, the toufu and what not in my diet as well, I think that it is fully supplemented! But meat or not, that doesn't equate to me falling ill or being weak. Oh, another link .... (all the random thoughts swirling in my head, you can't blame me for jumping here and there!) The reason why I stay away from meat... Okay 2 reasons, it's really hard to digest, I feel that I always find myself getting indigestion after ingesting meat so maybe that's one of the factor. The other would be .... I'm not eating sharks' fins or any other exotic creatures that are on the verge of extinction! So one day, I was sitting there thinking and I couldn't come to terms with myself why I shouldn't eat shark and other exotic meat but then continue to eat chickens and cows. Makes too little sense. I tried the argument that they were bred to be consumed. But then the thought the ones in captivity suffer even more! They were bred to be consumed, they were bred to be cramped up in small cages, they were bred to be mistreated. Gawd. Okay, totally senseless, cuz I'm still eating eggs. Ah, all the crap logic, now that I'm typing it out, it seems like it has become a chicken and egg argument. Never mind. I don't know why I am fine with seafood, maybe I will slowly distance myself from it. Just because they don't have fur and cannot be cuddly by any chance? Like how the fish in the water won't recognise you as someone who has been feeding and caring for you like how a cow would MOO in acknowledgement of its owner? Flawed theory because all are lives that I'm taking.  But I can take a bite of the chili beef fries, can't I? (Oh, Vanessa wants to try the chili beef sauce, so here you go... Oh dang, you can't take beef, sorry) Anws, it's just me and my too many considerations and too many little thoughts that eventually take over me (YIKEY) Okay, I shall stay addicted to Milk Tea from Koi and pearls overall are seen to be cancer causing to me so don't eat so much okay! And just like drink low sugar Milk Tea from Koi! Hahahah, alright you can kill me now for being in such a state of paranoia! On second thoughts, I know that I wouldn't be a vegetarian forever or you know pledge to it or smth. I would gladly consume an animal after its death has been respected. Knowing that the animal was taken and given the death sentence in a justified way... Respecting it. Thanking it for providing us with whatever it can, and that none of it goes to waste, that I can consume guilt-free. Oh and an hour ago, I was meddling with the printer just to print out my Chemistry Paper Threes to like chiong afterwards ! A levels FTW :D I actually kindof love the studying, shush.... Did I mention how I fell in love with the Bentley. Ciao, Kris Saturday, October 23, 2010
Raccoon Eyes Everyone should sport Raccoon Eyes Makeup! Be it using the dark eye shadow or the late nights doing work. It sure does compliment and give you that Pop-eye look :D  Did I mention how I have prom all planned out. The thing I hate about such stuff is that once I am in it, I am actually concerned about it. Cuz I don't want to go to a party or sorts feeling insecure and lacking of confidence. And wait.... I still don't know/forgot what the theme was about. (Crap) Anyways, I have decided to swallow a cup of black coffee without sooogar so I can be at my tiptop for the night :D And also to get some real strong alcohol, to like totally relax! How uncomfortable it would be if I can't relax cuz I'm always so concerned about this and that Heh! Anws, just that amount and not overboard, I don't wanna be spouting nonsense when I reach there. And ): I don't really like such occasions. (Oh gosh, yes yes, the always contradicting-herself Kristine) Ah, I know, I am actually schizophrenic, heh. There are things that are on my mind now. But that shouldn't be the case because the A levels are popping by to say Hi in less than 15 days? GASPS. Alright, so off to History that I had placed aside for quite sometime! And then should say Hi to Math and Stats which I failed to complete yesterday, it was really hard and I contemplated asking the JC student opposite me.... But didn't. Maybe he wasn't JC, he didn't have a Graphic Cal. with him. Owells. . . . . Anws, I am stuck in a dilemma! Money money money, come my way and then I shall let you know who's Boss. Money money money, just what I need now to make my day better :D Yes, how superficial, but Sky, do let some money fall on me. :D Ciao, Perturbed Kris. Thursday, October 21, 2010
You Balance It  And you ask why is this A levels student up here writing about nonsense. Yes nonsense. But all these thoughts, somehow, I needed to share! Going to mark my Chemistry paper soon! I felt so trapped. I don't see the need for me to go out of my way to please someone. Anyone, that is. Anyone. Unless, you mean deeply to me. But if you mean so deeply to me... There must be a reason, and I don't see why you would want me to feel uncomfortable and please you. Compromise. I can reciprocate, compromise, I can do a lot of things well. But then again, the real problem that lies with me... It would be the part of living life. I can't seem to really live life and understand the subtleties of life. It may seem like I am doing kinda well.... But in fact, I am easily affected, but I just don't show those emotions. Those raw emotions, I don't show them just like that. I can't understand and feel for someone else.... ( Come to think of it... Maybe it's more of the I don't want to do that) Okay, I can see people muttering, "Hell yeah, live a miserable live then Kris." Thank you very much I will. Did I say! My cousin passed her math examinations! Am I elated or elated? Totally! Mmm, one more thing on my mind. Don't regret your choice. It is you who pushed me away. And when you rethink why you get a cold shoulder, don't struggle and find or try to return to the position I had placed you at previously. They get occupied really fast. (The fact I am a needy soul, need to be surrounded by friends and everyone else) I don't wait. (Guess I really won't.) Ciao, Kris P/s Oh, that bread and butter pudding... Before it went into the oven. Sigh, cant find the one where it came out of the oven. I wanna bake veges in milk soon :D How It Feels To Fly - Alicia Keys Have you ever felt so strong That it made you feel weak Long days Long nights And you just can't sleep Have you ever been so sure That it gave you cold feet That felt all bare You can feel your heart beat Well I never knew this feeling never Now I hope it stays and last forever I am riding high I don't want to come down Hope my wings don't fail me now And If I can touch the sky I'd risk to fall just to know how it feels to fly Have you ever felt so lost But didn't know until you were found Looking everywhere What you finally see know In the room full of people Feels like no one's around Got your head in the clouds And your feet are off the ground Monday, October 18, 2010
I Can't Lie - Maroon 5 I Can't Lie - Maroon 5 To love you so hard for so long So much stronger than before But so much harder to move on And now the bitter chill of the winter Still blows through me like a plague Only to wake up with an empty bed On a perfect summer day My world just feels so cold And you find yourself Walking down the wrong side of the road I can't lie on my mind Stuck inside my head I wanna feel your heart beat for me instead, yeah I just die so much inside Now that you're not there I wanna feel your heartbeat like yesterday I never did my best to Express how I really felt And now that I know exactly what I want You found somebody else My world just feels so cold And I find myself Thinking about the things I could have done And it warms my soul When you let me know I'm not the only one Sunday, October 17, 2010
Choosing to be Alone Three Random Pictures for the day.  Still hung up on the muffin making day. Evolution! Owells just 3 egg yolks :D And someone said it looked like puke. (I should be doing history now...)  Random stuff, I was just testing my camera, but I guess there's nothing wrong to be placing it here luhhhh (I wouldn't mind staying up the whole night doing stuff. Sleep is overrated) Where I would totally be. Enjoying time and life and of course realization of myself.... Hopefully it happens there ... (I need to pack my table before I can start on anything) Owells, Aishahhhhhhhhh! :( Can't wait for nuts. There's this strong feeling in me to express my thoughts on why I would see myself moving out and staying alone when I reach age 21. (Maybe not so soon, I'd still have to see my financial capabilities!) Yikes. Financial burden! I have very low tolerance of people. I can't live with my family because of our differing views. This doesn't mean that I am constantly quarreling with them or anything like that. But it is more of how irritated I am of their way of thinking. I know I shouldn't be feeling that way, that is why I refrain from opening my mouth and actually voicing my thoughts. Because I don't want to them to be unhappy. I mean, why add the unnecessary stress to the household... right? I don't want and don't have the right to be imposing my thoughts on them! Why should I do that? I DO NOT HATE THEM, IN FACT I LOVE THEM SOOOO MUCH, I WOULDN'T DO ANYTHING TO HURT THEM.... BUT I AM INDEED NOT REALLY HAPPY. It is quite a good thing if you can keep your emotions in and vent them somewhere else. Hahaha, like complain to my friends or whoever that is willing to hear me out! And I need privacy. I don't like to be picked on. I dislike my mom coming into my room and asking my why my table is in a mess and commenting that if it's in a mess, how are you able to study... Or if I have my songs playing in the background, there is nagging again on how am I able to concentrate with my studies. I don't know how I am able to... But that is how I function, can't it just be like that? Owells. You must be thinking, what nonsense is this all about, because these are all small and puny stuff that I shouldn't be considering. You'd be thinking like... What?! She wants to move out because of such stuff? Yea, I don't really know why there's this tremendous urge in me to move out, to somewhere I can find privacy. Did I say... My Dad had been warning me how foolish I am to think this way because, where else in the world beats having a family like the one I have now. Yea, yea. Yada. I totally understand... There's the laundry always done. There's the food that's always prepared for me. There's the human-human interaction and so I would never be lonely. But why am I not swayed by such persuasiveness? I don't know either. Family. I love you, guys. But I realise loneliness isn't something that I am considering now. Is it very heartbreaking if my parents know that I don't really wanna stay with them, in this family? I think it is. (I can hear my gramma's voice ringing in my head: Why must you make things so difficult for yourself...??) I don't know, it's not difficult to me. I kinda like the way I hope things would be. Never thought of distancing myself from the family. Never will have those thoughts (: Owells, all I've written, are just thoughts. Thoughts which I have learnt to keep well within myself and not hurt anyone. And I guess till that day, they will still remain as thoughts. Pure thoughts. Hello History, my lovely ICJ, here I come. Goodbye :D Friday, October 15, 2010
It's People That Matter Kris: If it didn't do you any good, it must have been really sad for you. Okay... Some random pictures and a little more of this and that. I am tired.  Aishah's cute liddle cat :D but she scratches and bites me if I touch her paws. And she purrrrrrrrrrrs~  Oh Pig, I choose you. Laughter, Fun and Love. Maybe I did feel that bittersweet feeling during Graduation today. I can't explain why I do actually feel so. I guess the struggle in this place makes it hard to leave it because you're all on your own again. So fast, way too fast... And now I am on my own already. But I should be glad that the sch has given me that something to ensure my survival in society? I don't know what my life really revolved around for this 2 years of education. I've been reading about those notes that people post on Facebook about being grateful for what the school has done and how it has provided for them. There is no reason to deny all the benefits and everything else that the school has given me.... But everything went past way too fast, it's too blur to capture any moment that will stay with me. I know I have grown, to be more flexible and to be more matured. (This 2 years really changed me, really) But what would I hold on of this school after these 2 years? The friends? The teachings that the great teachers have passed on to me? Or? I don't know... What has changed in me? (Maybe it went the direction I didn't want it to) Maybe I am just a little slower... Maybe it will dawn on me soon enough (: Alright, after all that emo talk, owells, not really emo but then ... Now I feel unsure. But I know I will step into the "real society" now. And I am sure it would be much harder than it is now. But then, it might be much more enjoyable because you're actually doing something that you want to. And Weiwei was saying how her Lit teacher was telling them that A levels ain't your life. But if it gets you where your life is supposed to be... Doesn't it equate to life? Owells, all roads will lead to the said destination! I hope. So many ways and opportunities. I want to seize all of them. (That English essay is still somewhere there undone.) And History. So tired yet so awake. How can I say I'd rather be awake when I'm asleep. Messed up brain of mine. I kinda miss people already. NO reason why so. Just feel so ! I can see myself going into MIA for the next 3 wks. All the best Krissy. You need a good rest now and be ready and up to fight all that you have to. :D No regrets. No regrets. Never will there be regrets. I am tired and I don't see a need to hold you back. I don't see a need to chase after you again and again for no apparent reason. I don't want to do that. For real, if you stay, you will be rewarded, if you choose to hang halfway at the doorway. I would kindly ask you to leave. Loyalty does and will get rewarded. :D Ciao. (I need more maturity, more depth in my thoughts, more dimensions to all these thoughts and a better way to express them.) Wednesday, October 13, 2010
What A Happy Face  I've got peanut butter and bread and raisins and I think.... Why not let me make a happy face every morning for breakfast? So that my day would be a blessed and chirpy one :D Owells, school ends at 7 or so for every single day. By saying that it's fine and I'm fine with it is quite the bullshit I would say. It's torturous. Why complain. I need more sleep. But then ... I need more awake time. Awake time to relax. Sleeping is a chore now. I want the awake time... To exercise!!!! To hang out and laugh with friends To shop To eat slowly and have good meals To slack in front of the tv And to type a blog entry in a less rushed way. Alright complain and complain non stop Kris, nothing will turn better if you continue doing that. So why don't you pick your butt up and actually what you're supposed to ... Even Mr Lim can like say... it's only 2 mnths. So can you, cuz time passes so fast, you wouldn't realise that everything is over and accomplished. You know you've given in the 100% that many people think you haven't but fuck seriously, you only answer to yourself. Can't wait .... After a few more weeks of struggling, LA here I come. :D And then off to work and work and off to my life as a better person with a more matured mindset. And of course stop all imbecile things that I actually have going on. A, can't wait to have fun with you! I am prepared and alllllllllllllll ready for it! :D Ciao Sunday, October 10, 2010
Your lips, Your lies, Your lust Anberlin - Feel Good Drag I am lyricified so now, I can scream along with them! Previous scream-along song was Closer To The Edge - 30 STM. But that made my Dad irritated and cynical. Owells! Then the random pictures and the random ranting blogpost. I feel like an auntie nowadays!   How we would send Khairul into the oven after sprinkling all the black pepper onto him. Yay! Frankly speaking, it's quite disgusting because.... The soccer people and track people spit and perspire into the synthetic grass. You don't whose saliva you're picking up heh.  Heh, decided to show you guys my hair. Which of course means showing the whole world my bald spots. Damn the camera, I can't flip the pictures the right way. Owells.  Oh and Kris with a cute fatty face I like :D Anws, front view not much of a diffff.... But you know what! I wonder how the Africans actually hang on with the hairstyle for soooooooooo long, I mean srly, it will itch and it will make you go like Grrrr. And then when you remove, hair drops exponentially. But that was like months ago. I have new hair now.  Hey, one of my Universal Studios picz. Didnt upload the album. And gawd, srly warm that day and so many people were there... Some rides had to queue for like 2 hours or smth. Hi there people! Decided to put some pictures up because I am sooooo lazy to do anything with Facebook and putting my pictures up. I think I'm going to be firm with my decision and deactivate that account of mine. Yes it is deactivated. :D Now on with my daily life. And I don't know why I decided to blog.. For no real reason when I should be studying. Oh then I remember. It was because of the lousy testimonial I had to churn out. Damned. Shitty I'd say. How to write soooo many words (550 words) about yourself and your good qualities. I mean everyone has a few but then sooooo many words, after writing it. I am quite embarrassed Hahaha! Did I mention how bad today's weather was? Phew. So godamned fucking warm I'd say! D: Yuck. Really. And while writing my testis (heheh), I felt so pissed w my current life yuk! :S Positive mindset Krissy! Altruism Krissy :D Yay and I love the world (provided you're in it, yes yes, you the one that is looking at the screen now, if not how would I live my days!!! :D) All those out there who are willing to support my big fat ass, I love you guys :D Ciao (I'm in love with your sins, your littlest sins) |
|
This city's made us Crazy
And we must get out |
|
